Wow.  That is all. :)

Wow.  That is all. :)

Happy Six Month Band-iversary To Me!!

Down a total of 65 pounds in 6 months.  I’m a freakin’ rock star! :)

It’s been a while since I’ve posted because I’ve been busy working out almost every day like a mad woman! 

Say Whaaaaat?!

I know! I know!  Not like me at all!  6 days a week and working on adding a 7th day.  My membership to the YMCA has helped IMMENSELY.  I love having the support and variety of classes and close convenient access to it all.  All of that has really contributed to making me WANT to work out.  

Who am I and what have I done with the old me!?! 

I don’t really care because I kinda don’t want her back.  I’m really digging the new me…

I feel the best I have in a long time, not just because of the weight loss, although I’m sure that helps significantly!  My energy is up, my mood is up, my confidence is up, I think I’m funnier, too! LOL 

As successful as I have been so far, I’m not perfect. 

I still don’t take my multivitamins like I’m supposed to every day..  and because of this I’ve been sick 3 times in the past 6 months.  Way above average!!  I’m working on this.. I need to find a tiny pill I can swallow because chewables are just not working for me…

Surgery also doesn’t fix the emotional eating problem I have.  Therapy helps, and all the positive changes I’m making in my life help, but when I’m stressed or upset, I still want nothing more then to bite into a giant sugary, fatty, high caloric-y, cakey, buttery, really sugary goodness of SOMETHING.  BUT, I am very happy to report that even tho I give into my cravings sometimes still, because of my surgery, I cannot  eat nearly as much as I would normally binge on before surgery.  So, for example, what may pre-surgery have been 6 cupcakes, has post surgery, turned into just one cupcake.  So that’s a good thing!   

I also have been obsessively weighing myself every day.  Not good!  Everyone says it’s not good and I have always replied with, “I need to weigh myself every day to keep myself accountable”

BULL.  SHIT.

It drove me crazy last month.  I was so focused on that number that I thought I hadn’t lost a single pound.  I was so upset about it and when I saw the surgeon last week, I had actually lost 13 pounds in that month!  I haven’t weighed myself since.  Partially because I’m in Fort Myers visiting family and don’t have a scale here…. lol But still, I’m going to try and at least keep it to once a week. 

Sooo…  I guess to sum it up- Things are going well :)  I have lost 35 pounds since my last before and after picture post so I will be taking another picture too!  And be on the lookout for my new cute bathing suit that I’ll wear in the photo because the bathing suit I was wearing in the first two photos is now wayyyyy too big :)

'Till Next Time..

Holidays Were a Success..But Now I’m Sick

I say this because I was able to splurge on tasty holiday dishes and still lose weight…  I think that’s a success in my book!  I think this is the first time I have ever lost weight over the holidays. 

I went to Jersey from Christmas and New Years and had a blast!  Got to eat yummy Cuban food and a few Jersey classics.  Got to spend some time with family and friends.. It was great!

This past Friday I did my first Disney 5k and I kept an average 17 minute per mile pace.  YAY ME!  I did this walking the whole time.  I’m hoping to start a walk to run program soon.  I was also at Disney Saturday and Sunday supporting my hubby while he ran the 1/2 marathon and full marathon.  (I almost forgot to mention that he also walked the 5k with me, coaching me, supporting me, getting me water, and making sure I was ok- Best. Hubby. Ever.) 

And now… for the sick part.  I woke up with a sore throat on Monday.. which turned into sore throat and coughing on Tuesday with a fever of 100.  Today I still feel like poop but I don’t have a fever so that’s good. 

Since I have the lap band, My surgeon prefers that I get medicine in liquid form or injection whenever possible.  So….I’ve got Phenergan in liquid form for the cough, and I’m taking Tylenol in liquid form.  I guess it’s better then an injection!

Oh yeah, and I’m down about 10 more pounds since last post about a month ago. 

Go Me!

I am so happy to be a loser..

It’s been about a month since my last entry and I’m down 8 more pounds! I’ve never been so happy to be a loser!!

I think I want to write this entry in list format since I have a lot to talk about..

-Thanksgiving was great!  I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to eat *real* Thanksgiving food, but I did.  I just had 4 ounces of it :-)

-Since I’m not eating a lot of food, my cravings for desserts have gone down (they are still there but not as much).  Most times I’d just rather eat a meal then waste time on a dessert which wouldn’t be so filling.

-Like I said before, I still like dessert.  But rather then trying to squeeze it in after every meal like I sometimes did pre-surgery, instead I just have something small at night which satisfies me.  Last week I made a peanut butter pie recipe that I got from the Lapband website. AMAZING!  Hubby even had a slice and thought it was super sweet and rich.  He almost didn’t believe me when I told him the main ingredient was sugar free jello pudding! 

-Going out to eat has decreased to maybe once a week if I’m lucky.  This has saved us soo much money!!

-I found a bunch of support groups (both online and offline) that I am taking advantage of now.  My surgeon also has a support group that runs once a month that I will be trying out.  I even signed up for a Weight Loss Surgery cooking class at Celebration Hospital!  Soo awesome to have people that really understand what I’m going thru.

-I’m up to walking 1.5-3 miles at least 3 times a week.  Doing a 5K in January with hubby!  You should join us! :)

-My clothing is falling off of me.  I have lots of clothing starting at size 24 (starting size, but now it’s falling off of me) all the way down to 18, so I’ll be covered for the most part till then.  Except right now my smaller clothing is still a little too snug, but my larger clothing is too large.. Oh lord.. me and my Skinny Bitch Problems.. :)

-Recipes:  I’ve been in search for yummy simple recipes..  I was thinking about creating a FB group for recipe swapping.. Let me know if you would participate!

-Oh yeah!  Christmas is coming up soon and I’ll be traveling to NJ to see the family.  It will be nice to get on a plane and be a little smaller, a little more comfortable in my seat.

I can’t think of anything else…..sooooo.. until next time!

A Better Afternoon..

On a good note! After my last post I got some suggestions from one of my support groups, perhaps it is time for a fill.  So I bit the bullet and went this afternoon for a fill. Now I have to be on liquids for the rest of the day and tomorrow mushies (which is awesome because I love the mushy stage foods.. ).  I’m a little more optimistic about this now.  Let’s hope the fill helps. 

So what exactly happens during a fill?  I basically lay on my back with a pillow under my back, this helps my port (that is located under the skin right above my belly button) protrude out a little so that doctor can find it easier.  He then gave me a local anesthetic at the port site, which felt like a little pinch and then a slight burn.  Once that took effect he injected my port with 1cc of saline. (Painless)  He then made me drink some water to make sure I wasn’t too tight and could keep down fluids.  I was ok so he sent me on my way and told me to call if I have trouble keeping food down. 

OH! I almost forgot!  I had my first (and hopefully last) “stuck” episode this past weekend.  Not something to be excited about really, but I kinda am because now I know what it feels like.  And it does NOT feel nice at all, so I don’t ever want to experience that again.  Thank goodness my food didn’t come back up.  I ate too fast and didn’t chew my food enough.  Then I started feeling my food go down.  And I really mean I FELT it..  it was soo painful.  This sharp pain..burning sensation in your chest.  You almost feel like you can’t breathe.. but you can because your airway isn’t being blocked..  But it’s still not fun!  I had to take a sip of water while eating (which is usually a no no) to help the food go down.  The last thing I want is to throw up, too much of that can cause band slippage. 

So now, hopefully I haven’t grossed you out too much.  I just felt like I needed to post again.

As always, thanks for listening. :)

Good Days & Bad Days..Today Is A Bad One :/

Yesterday was my 4 week ‘bandiversary’. 

Yay.

I’m not feeling that excited right now if you couldn’t tell. I didn’t lose any weight last week.  I’ve been exercising.. Not 5 days a week like I over zealously committed to.  But at least I’m doing something.  I’ve been doing Monday, Wednesday and Friday mornings.  Thirty minutes each day.  And then on the weekend I usually get some walking in. 

But I still didn’t lose any weight.

I know that this can happen.  I know it’s normal.  I know people plateau. 

Then why do I feel like a failure?

3 Weeks Banded.. & No Job…

Today I am officially 3 weeks banded!  HOORAY!!!  I’m so glad I did this for myself.. Things are going great!  Eating differently is becoming second nature.. I’m not hungry in between meals like I originally feared I would be.. I’m probably thinking about food just as much as I used to, but in a totally different way.  Instead of thinking ‘Whats the most decadent delicious over the top thing I can eat right now”, Now the focus is more “How can I make sure to get enough protein in” and just planning ahead for the next meal in a HEALTHY way :-) 

I’m not going to lie.  I have had cravings for chocolate and sweets..  but I know my stomach will only allow so many ounces of food a day and I dunno if Im willing to sacrifice a few of those ounces for something that will probably not be very filling…  Not yet at least..

So while things on the lap band front are going great… on Friday I got laid off at work :(  It’s okay tho.  I’m okay.  We are in the best position financially for this to have happened.  I have a really good feeling about this too.  Like there is another special job out there with my name on it..  For now I’m filing for unemployment. (Which let me tell you is going to be more work then actually having a job.  They now require you to take 3 different types of tests before you claim your weeks AND submit at least 5 contacts for each week that you’ve been in touch with about a job opportunity.. But I digress…) 

I figure now that I don’t have a job, I have NO EXCUSE NOT TO EXERCISE!  Today I did some fast paced walking with several jogging bursts for 30 minutes.  So proud of myself!  I’m committing to myself to do this at least 5 days a week.  Let’s hope I can keep this up. 

Ok.. it’s time I faced my fears and posted my starting weight.  I started off at 315, and am now at 285.  Here’s a comparison..  Small changes… But I feel so much better already :-)

Ok.. it’s time I faced my fears and posted my starting weight.  I started off at 315, and am now at 285.  Here’s a comparison..  Small changes… But I feel so much better already :-)

Officially Banded For One Week, But the Journey is Far From Over…

It’s been one week since my surgery.  Yesterday was the first time I’ve felt well enough to even pull out my lap top.  It has been a HELL of a week..

Other then having a panic attack in the OR, surgery went well.  They wanted to keep me overnight because of the panic attack.  My mom stayed with me which was really nice.  I slept alot, which is typical after surgery. 

Once home, recovery started off as well as can be expected.  The biggest pain and discomfort I had was gas pains in my side.  My pillow was my best friend, holding it close to my belly helped minimize the pain.  Mylaanta was another good friend of mine.  Had some trouble sleeping, but I felt like I was getting a little better every day. 

Mom left on Friday morning and I was really sad, but I was getting better so I knew I’d be ok.  At least I thought I would.  Unfortunately, Friday I took a turn for the worst.  I had a pounding headache all day and my blood pressure shot up to 152/102.  I called the doctor to let him know what was going on.  He said that it could very well be the pain medication I was on which had codeine in it, so he ordered me to stop taking it and instead take over the counter extra strength liquid tylenol.  Once I was able to switch to that and with the help of my hubby heating up some gelpacks for my head, my headache went away and then my blood pressure was back to normal. 

The next two days I felt weak and in pain and not at all as great as I was feeling in the beginning of the week, which sucked.  I spent all weekend mostly in bed sleeping or trying to sleep.  I didn’t even turn the television on much.  My aunt drove from Fort Myers and stayed for the weekend to take care of me.  I knew I wasn’t ready to go back to work yet, so I called my boss and let him know I needed a few more days.  By last night, I was feeling a little better.  Even antsy, so hubby took me out to the store for a little bit.  It was tiring, and I was a little dizzy, but I needed to get out and it was nice.

Yesterday morning I woke up feeling pretty good and half normal.  I slept pretty much all thru the night and woke up and was able to make coffee for hubby and feed the cats. I hung out in the living room all day with my lap top, which is a good sign.

Today my mother in law drove me to my one week follow up appointment with my surgeon.  He says I’m doing great!  After my appointment we went to a few stores and I was able to walk a bit.  I’m exhausted, but I’m not lightheaded, so things are progressing nicely.  I think I’ll be able to go to work tomorrow. 

I just realize that I haven’t told you) what my diet has consisted of.  Week one was chicken broth, jello (which got old real fast), and sugar free italian ice.  It is now week 2 and I have added oatmeal, sugar free pudding, and cream soups to the mix.  Cream soups and oatmeal have never tasted this good.  I can’t wait till I can have meat again, I have been missing and craving that. 

So, total weight loss so far?  Well, before surgery, I was able to lose about 15 pounds.  Since surgery, I’ve lost 10 pounds.  I’d say I’m doing pretty damn good :-)